I figure I might as well start this baby journal thing I get sent every week so here goes.
what has surprised you most about being a parent?
--This time around what has surprised me most (for the third time) is the fierce love that I have for this child. I mean, I know that I love my children on a daily basis but sometimes I forget the fact that they are a huge blessing in my life. Sometimes I take them for granted and what has surprised me is how strong we can be for our children. When they told me Logan might very well die I cried for about a minute, sitting on the hospital bed in the ER, holding Logan, telling Vidal that our son might not make it. But then I got it together so that I could be strong for him. I knew right then that he needed me to talk to him and reassure him, even if he couldn't understand. I prayed and let go. Looking back, it is a really painful memory. Vidal told me later on that he just felt so helpless because he couldn't come to the hospital since he had my grandma and the boys. Why I didn't call my dad and tell him to get his butt to my house to watch his mother, I have no clue. One would think it would have been the most logical thing so that Vidal could have been with his dying son but the thought never occurred to anyone. Anyway, I hope that I never again take for granted what a huge blessing our children are in our lives and how quickly that can be taken away.
Logan laughing and this is the last "pic" of him while his tummy was plain.
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