Happy 2nd Birthday Logan!

Well, the title says it all! Happy Birthday Logan! I can't believe he is 2 already. In some ways it feels as though the time has flown by since the morning he came into our lives and in other ways it feels as if it has been forever. In speaking of growth, it has been forever. In speaking of memory, it was just yesterday. Two years ago right now I was (how rare--haha) on my computer, reading email, passing time because I was feeling contractions and everyone else in the house was asleep. Just when I decided to go to bed and get some rest, the contractions became uncomfortable enough that I knew I couldn't sleep. I had no clue then just how much our lives would be turned upside down, left and right. I feel like I'm just now figuring out which end is up.

After two years, I know this much. I am so grateful that I didn't know how life was going to go. I am grateful that God gave Logan and I the first month to get to know each other before being thrown into the land of doctors and appts-- a land I wasn't much familiar with before. I am grateful that Logan and I were able to share his peaceful birth in our home. And I am thankful that Logan's first moments were of being caught by his daddy and loving midwife and held by his mommy and loved by his nana, brothers, and mamaw. I am thankful that Logan was able to nurse for 14 months. I am also thankful for the many doctors and medical personnel who have done their best with Logan's care and who have always worked with me to choose a plan we can live with.

Like I have said before, I am grateful to have gotten to know this boy. I am grateful that I would know Logan across any crowded room. I am so glad to have gotten to know his stubborn, free spirited, spunky, sweet little self! I can't imagine a world without him. In all the happy moments that Logan brings, I can't help but get a little sentimental.

I am also thankful for our friend Ruth. Without Ruth I'm not sure Logan would be celebrating a 2nd birthday. Ruth followed the call from God and called me despite not really wanting to do so. From there we took Logan to the ER. From there we were flown to Driscoll Children's Hospital. There we were told that without a doubt, Logan would not have lived another few hours. Had Ruth not called, we might not have ever gotten to know the wonderful little person that Logan is.

I'm grateful for Dr Al-Akash. Without Dr Al-Akash, I might have just gone crazy by now. I am so thankful that he is willing to talk things over with me until I understand and thankful that he loves Logan so much.

I am grateful to have such wonderful friends and family that have stuck by our family through all of the hard times and celebrated with us through the good times. I am grateful for my mom who has had to step in and take the boys with no notice so many times. I am grateful for my cousin, Marilee, who has been my person to bounce all the negative thoughts and fears off of.

Thank you Logan for being you! I don't know what life would be like without you. I am so happy to have had you in our lives for 2 years and I can't wait to get to know even more about you. Happy, Happy Birthday Logey Bear!!!!!