A year gone by

Wow, I realized the other day that a year has gone by since Grandma has been gone. A year of no adult diaper changes; a year of no being slapped for looking at her wrong; a year of no back aches from carrying her to and from; a year of no ocassional smiles that both surprise you and light up your day; a year of no raspy voiced, I love you Jessi. I would take all of the bad for the simple moments of wonder. I know she would love to watch Logan get into everything and she would love to spank him on the butt as he walked by. Not a day goes by that I don't miss her though I can't say I miss the stinky diaper changes. I would take a million of them for one more hug from her. I can talk about her now with crying and I can laugh at the good times. I can't say that this year without her has been easy. I see so much of her spite in Logan. I guess her spite and her spirit. He's mean like her and got tons of fight. It will suit him well though really. I think that was her gift to him. He has her spunk as well. I finally changed my voice mail to inclue Logan and take Grandma off. Her book closed a long time ago and in it's place is Logan's.

And so Grandma, we will see you soon in heaven, but hopefully not too soon. We'll miss you while you're gone from us but we will smile at your memories. You had more impact on my life than you will ever know and I am blessed to have had you in my life, even when at the time it didn't necessarily seem like it. I hope you are enjoying dancing your days away and eating your peanut butter-banana sandwiches and drinking your bear. Love you Grandma.